Conversations this morning.
Connor Mummy, I want to go to work with you today.
Me Baby, they don't allow babies to come to work.
Kendra We're not babies. We're big kids.
(very tempted to say "big kids remember to say if they need to pee" but I restrained myself)
Me Okay, Connor, you can go to work in the sunroom. What are you going to do at work?
Connor Write.... and work on the computer.
Kendra And eat yoghurt!
Me (laughing) Well, that's true, Kendra. I do eat yoghurt at work.
(they obviously watch to see what I add to my food bag in the morning)
So there you have it - at work, you write, work on the computer and eat yoghurt. Quite accurate in my case but I would also add "managing other people's cr*p"
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But really, work.
Has been... interesting.
The
big thing has not been removed from my shoulders (or more important, my list) but we have agreed that I should just focus on the other million things on my plate and not stress about that. For now.
Which is not ideal, me being a J and wanting things Sorted. Decided. Now.
But at least I've been released to be productive in other areas for awhile.
So yesterday I had the dreaded performance discussion.
They inflict this on us every 6 months and it is a true dread.
I even hated them with my old Wonderful Boss.
I think it's because I'm cynical as I know they give you whatever increase just because and not as a direct result of the PA.
How do I know this? Because in the past we've had increase letters and then had PAs.
Anyway, moving on.
My ex-boss phoned the new boss while we were busy with my PA.
She told him she can only talk quickly so he phoned me afterwards to see how it went.
Me It was both better and worse than I expected.
True story.
The conversation around my role here, what I'm doing, how I'm doing, etc. was
brutally honest and
very challenging (all of which I love when I can feel the person wants what's best for me and are not just being mean) but I got VERY low scores.
We mark out of 8 (I won't bore you with the nitty gritty) and I've typically got some 6s and mostly 7s.
This time I got 4s, 5s and I think one 6.
So I am not looking forward to seeing that bonus letter or the resultant conversation.
But the interesting thing was the metaphor for my work that I'm getting from the photography courses!!!!
I even pulled up this pic in the meeting (on my iPad!!!) and we discussed how amazing this is.
I am a bit scared (okay, a lot) of New Boss because she's brilliant but does not suffer fools gladly. And so I don't bring all of my awesomeness to my job because what if she doesn't agree, think as I do, etc.
She said something so insightful I'm still mulling it over - my great thing is also my downfall. I am so good at getting things done quickly that I sometimes do that at the cost of everything else. E.g. after I analyse a business case, I type out an email with my thoughts and off it goes to the client. It's fine but she said maybe if I think on it another day or so, different focuses will emerge, etc. and this will mean a more complete analysis. All true.
So my things to work on:
- be brave (to speak out more, esp with her)
- tell my story - to bring MORE of myself no matter what
- be open to experimenting
- trade my fear (with some lines of business) for curiosity
- don't be afraid to make mistakes (of COURSE I am!!!)
I was actually gobsmacked at all these insights from photography! Are you?
How's your work going at the moment - out of the home or at home work?
What do you think of my insights?